In trying to figure out how to set this blog up I searched and searched for a picture of me for my profile photo and discovered there are none. I have a GAZILLION of my kids and dogs and some of Paul but only a very few of myself… and the ones I do have are really bad of me documenting how goofy or unattractive I can actually be. L.O.L!!!
I love being silly and I do love the part of me that is not afraid of looking bad. But allowing myself to look good???? Is really difficult. I have a few ideas of where THAT issue comes from, but I’ll Only share one for now…
You see where I come from… and when I come from … meaning my generation… it was considered conceited to try too hard to look good. And don’t get me started on taking photos of yourself… can you say “ stuck up”??? That was the worst insult… to be called stuck up.
I don’t know how to act or be in front of the camera other than making a silly face . I used to get in trouble for it as a kid… there goes Janie ruining the picture… haha
i DO have a goofy smile. But I can’t understand people who don’t smile for a photo. Think Victoria Beckham … she is SO beautiful ! And stylish! And seems like a genuinely kind and loving person… but frankly she looks miserable to me. I don’t want to look miserable. I’m not miserable. I’m happy and goofy and silly… but it might be nice to look beautiful from time to time…
I’ll work on it. 😊